Right Now!

    Its been already almost 5 months since I've been gone... I talk to my family, close friends, and "My Love" about every week or so. It went by fast, now that I look back the things I did during my first deployment. Right Now, I have about a week left and its going unbelievably slow! Its driving me crazzzzy.... Some days I try to sleep all day, just to get by, and it really blows... I think its going real slow because I'm trying to plan what im going to do for the 18 leave dates I'm issued. I've been trying to set up what days I'm gonna hang out with who and where, and that there is making me miss home soOooOOOo much. ArrrggGG PLEASE!!!! Time go a little faster, so I can go home and see everyone! I miss you guyz! oh! and by the way...  KUWAIT FUCKING BLOWS!  X 10

It's already almost half way done with this deployment and i can't tell you how warm the word "Home" feels... I wonder how you guyz are doing back home... living your lives to the fullest and moving on and away from troubles in your lives, atleast most of you.  I can't honestly say i made the right decision of coming in the service... because right now i regret it like crazy meng.... For few days now we've been helping out with evacuation of the americans in Lebonnon. If you guyz seen the news there is a war going on between Lebonnon and Isreal. Nothing dramatic happened during the evacuation exept couple of riots and the embassy, so no need to worry guyz. I wish i can talk to you guyz in person instead of me posting messages on your myspaces. *sigh*  On the real, I didn't know I would end up here today... I guess i didn't really think it through you know?... and there are some memories in my mind, I would do anything to spend more time in... You being one. *whew* I guess what I'm trying to say is that, don't live too fast guyz, cherish the moments that matter to you, I'm not just talking about your girlfriend/boyfriends, I mean your family and friends. Honestly I don't know where I'll end up in tomorrow. You don't know what tomorrow will bring. I'm saying all of this because I recieved a letter about my friend I went to bootcamp with, they notified me that he died couple of weeks back, I guess the mail takes long to travel out here... so it made me think about this and everything else. Maybe I should live my life with more meaning. Take advantage of opportunities and time that is given to me. To not hesitate when I feel the need to have something or someone. To stop being bothered with what everyone else thinks. Well that's just me, I guess you never know when you gonna go. I sure as hell don't wanna go with the feeling that i "missed out". HELL NAW!   So my brothers and my sisters that I love so much, take a minute and think about what i write. I miss you all so FUCKING MUCH! There is no place like "HOME"         

                                                            Love you  ...                            same ol Charlie....

OoOOoooO how much my life sux at this forsaken place i have been put to....  I just arrived at a Army base named FORT A.P. HILLS and it is a training facility with absolutely..... nuthing but woods and old buildings. My unit just came here to get ready and train for deployment but damn..! my phone has no service at all.... so im stuck here fer a month with no damn phone... Geez i thought Cingular was "Raising the Bars" bulll-fucking-shit!!! everybody got service exept me.... i gotta borrow a phone all the time to call my love ones! im sorry if i dont call you fer a month yall.... that doesnt mean i dont Love YOUS. Oh how much this place reminds me of boot camp. They got army sergeants walking around with "smoky the bear hat" and no phone! but its ok... i think it helps me focus..   Anywats i had so much fun visiting back home in NJ and NY.   Sometimes i wish i was living back home, with my friends and family close by me... *sigh*   but i knoe if i still lived the way i use to live i would be headed straight to failure, so i guess i gotta make the best of it in the Marine Corps. Im gonna take the time left here to Grow more and learn more responsibilities of a leader and a man. Which will lead me into becoming a better MAN. hey i sounds so mature now! hahahaha! how about that.  well my time on-line is about to expire so i guess ill post up more logs when i get a chance. Oh and Linh i never see you on line !

burrrrrrr~~~~~~ It's so cold all of a sudden... ororo i am not good with cold weatherz... everyone in Florida!..... I am very jealous! heh...

Not alot has been going on but i noticed i haven't been really thinking about my life.... shit.. things get really complicated when im like this... i noticed myself not saving ne more.... that is not good!!!! urggg.... i used to save so i can buy things fer her but she never wanted nething... hah <sorri just reminicing> haha.... i think she didnt want nething because she was had a thought dat it wasnt going to last...sux fer me huh?

I need to get outta here... atleast for a lil while... somewhere where noone knows me... somewhere beutiful, somewhere relaxing, sounds good? that is my paradise!       how lovely it sounds...

I'm getting sick, I have runny nose... I feel like a kid again! OoOOoweee~  This sure isnt a good feeling no it isnt.... someone help me.... i Dont want to B SICK! she used to be real sick ... on da phone she would constantly whine and cry about how bad she is feeling... I wish i could have done more then say "HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER" .... she sounded real qute though.... My dream was to make her happy, if her happiness doesnt include me then I'll leave without a struggle... but i wonder.... is that what she wanted?